So I've been sick for a while now. I'm kinda over.... I hope at least...

So I drew a pic, it's not finished, but hey! I feel pretty good about it.

I go back to work tomorrow/today. Hopefully my boss won't be there. But knowing my luck, he will be.

Still looking at houses. Kinda sucks, I always find one I want, and of course it's always gone by the time we get enough money together or around that.

Doesn't matter if it's been on there for a long time or short. It always goes.

Anyways.

I wanna start up my Yu Yu Hakusho, "Kougo no Jigen" again. But I rarely have time to do that.

I've been going in and out depression. Yeah I know sounds weird.

I guess it's just the stress of trying to find a house, plus get my car fixed, along with the wedding (even though that's still a year away.), and work all together.

I know I know. Do one at a time. Kinda hard when I do, and other things come up. *sighs*

I have my plans and I know what I want to do, but something always comes up.

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Work - God my boss is just fucking pissing me off!!! He said he was gonna take me off the schedule if I didn't show up for work. I'm like are you fucking kidding me?! I rarely call in sick, and when I do this is what you're gonna do to me?! Fuck you buddy!!!

But he can't take me off anyways, then he says after I believe it hits him he can't, that I'm gonna take you off of U-Scan and Desk. I'm like sure ya are. Let's see I haven't been at U-Scan in God knows how long, and you fired one desk closer, the other you hate, and the other changed her work hours.

Plus it's like he acts like he doesn't have me cashier at all! Half of my fucking shift if I'm at Desk or U-Scan is Goddamn cashiering. What an asshole.

Plus he's been getting on my case about coming to work in dress code. It's like fuck you man, you never say anything to the other women just me!!! Makes me wonder if the rumors are true sometimes with the whole he's doing them.

Then if that wasn't bad enough, I had to work 11am to 11pm. I was that sick I messed up on what day I was to come in. So I was my mid and the closer. Then he gets mad cause I said I can't come in tomorrow (which was the shift I thought was that day), and I'm like really dude?

I threw up, and he made me stay. Put me back in the check stand, and tells me I need to think about if I'm not coming in tomorrow or not.

One day I will tell him to fuck off, and when I do, I'll be so happy.

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Bills - So I'm almost caught up on our bills. I have like two to three more payments on my credit cards. All he has left is a doctor's bill, and he's gonna turn off his cell phone, cause it's just too much money right now. Those haven't been bugging me as bad. He's just gotta claim bankrupt on two credit cards that there's no way to pay them what so ever, and a personal loan that's just trying to eat him alive.

Other then that. It's all good.

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Car - So I've finally had it with my car. My dad won't help me what so ever. My mom, sister, friends, Joey, and myself don't have time. I'm usually always cleaning, or at least trying to visit with friends I haven't seen in ages.

I'm just gonna take it down to Maaco and have them do the body work, and pain job. I really need my car. I'm so tried of bottoming rides from people. I'm hoping it ain't gonna cause to much.

I wanna do that in Sept. I'm crossing my fingers to do that. I wanna drive it so bad.

I also need to get it a battery and gas, because my asshole for a dad won't do it. Even though he took those from me in the first place. Jerk.

All I really need him to do is switch the doors. That's all! It's gonna be so fucking hard to do, cause I swear he just loves watching me in pain. (Sounds like my boss doesn't it?)

The only other thing I really need done is to finish painting the trunk and hood. I think... I'm hoping at least.

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Finding a House - I'm looking, and it's hard to find one. I mean it's not like there aren't any out there. Just either not the right ones or too high.

We're trying to find one before Dec is over. Cause that's when the whole $8,000 new home owners thing ends. If we can't find one by that time it's alright. We just have to find one before the wedding.

Cause I found out that once we get married, my credit will go to shit, cause his is so bad. Sucky.

Just need to get a down payment, which shouldn't be too hard, and we'll be on our way hopefully.

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Wedding - I have almost everything picked out. I just don't have the money set a side like I should. But I'm gonna start saving in Nov, cause we should be caught up with everything to be ok.

I'm just so happy, I can't wait for this, and neither can he. God I love that man.

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Oh yeah. We also got a new kitten. He's a long hair tux kitten named Tiny or Scrabby Doo which ever ya like to call him. He's a mama's boy, I love that cat.

Well I guess I should be heading off. I'm done being pissed, and I should go to bed or at least take my meds so I get better.

Well thanks for listening/reading. I'll try to take more pics and draw maybe even write more.

Night!

Loves,
Yasha T